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Saturday, January 5, 2008

Haha...well i havent been blogging much lately due to the reason that a new term of school has begun...and its probably the most important year for us :D....cause our O levels are coming up real soon....and we all gotta study real hard to obtain good results :D.....haha....anyways....ill do a quick review over what has happened the past few days....school started on the first day as per normal....was given like 2 boxes of J.co donuts by kenneth and alvin...haha....really wanna say a big thank you to them for bringing it all the way from indonesia for me :D....so than went assembly and saw the new principal...i guess shes alright haha.....oh by the way....my hair was still quite brown on the first day of school....so i immediately went to dye it back to black :D....haha....den after that on the 2nd day of school...it was the sec 1 orientation camp...and i was chosen to lead the class sec 1f :D....haha...really a lively class....and i enjoyed leading them.....den basically today....went for the sec 1 cca open house to help out as a student leader....took abt 2 hrs to show them around....and then went out with deb to vivo...we went to the kopitiam and ate....but amazingly...it wasnt really that crowded even though it was the lunch period of time o.0?.....haha.....after we ate...we went to the sky terrace...or wadeva u call it....and than we walked around for like quite awhile haha....looking at sceneries and stuff...den we went to this restaurant called..."No signboard" restaurant....haha....and looked at the 2 fish aquariums which were outside....kinda cool....haha....oh and i officially want to make the annoucement that debbie is a big bully! haha.....jkjk....dont sad la....u bully me is nvm de hahahaha.......so anyways we just walked around....and guess who we saw!.....our vice principal mr tham!.....wah gg....he and his wife were also walking at the sky terrace....anyways....after that we went to the pet shop to look at dogs :D....haha....the big dog cute hor? cute? haha.....yes la comfirm cute one ahahaha......after that....we just walked and walked around....den after that we went home :D.....and at abt 9pm....went to long beach for dinner with aunt and uncle....sadly...all crabs were sold out....so we just ate other foods available haha....thats abt all for today!

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

Ok...going to write a short post today...cause i need to write some other stuff late....basically i woke up quite late today....about 11.30....guess its cause i slept at around 2 the day before....anyways....after that....took lunch and went to darrens house at 3.30 for a game of poker....not bad....i won quite alot...haha....but anyways....played until 6....den went out with aunt and uncle for dinner....after that went home....thats about it...pretty boring haha.....

Part 2 To Her:
Well continuing from my previous message to you....i just want to take this opportunity to dedicate some meaningful song lyrics to you.....even though they may not be written by me...but every single message that the lyrics are trying to tell....represents something that i wish to say to you.....enjoy =)

This first song is called Dark Long Night...otherwise known as D.L.N

I knew it from the beginning. So I'm not sad.Little by little, little by little. It's as counting numbers.The colors of dying plants get blurred. I don't find out the end of a season.The day, which traces footsteps, reads the day, which listens to footprints.It is common that I cannot change tomorrow if I don't have any wishes.I follow the sound of dying plants. And I feel the end of a season.When the flowers are blooming, what will be left on my hand? The moon closes the curtain. But the sun shines on me.I knew it from the beginning. So I'm not sad.Even if I wake up and the night doesn't end. And even if there are no shiny stars there.Even if the all lights in the town vanish... I saw enough of the happy face of the one I should protect and the end of the one I loved.So I am satisfied with it.

This second song is called Walk Away...the song is actually trying to dictate the story of a woman who has lost her husband due to an accident...and everyday...she waits and wishes for him to return....

All the words that we have to sayThey don't leave when the moment comes We know we have to waitAs the days go on and the places fade awayto dirt and to dust, it all fade awayAnd the waiting is the hardest thing to takeIn an moment more before we breakIf you have to let it goAnd these dreams keep you awakeIf you have to let it goWalk awayIn the shapes we want to seeDon't leave another piece that this puzzle needsAnd the waiting is the hardest thing to takeIn an moment more before we breakIf you have to let it goAnd these dreams keep you awakeIf you have to let it goWalk away

This third song is called Was It A Dream...it tells the story of a guy...who wonders if his relationship with the girl he likes is actually existing...or was it just a dream....

Your defenses were on high. Your walls built deep insideYeah I'm a selfish bastardBut at least I'm not aloneMy intentions never changeWhat I wanted stays the sameAnd I know what I should doit's time to set myself on fireWas it a dream?Was it a dream?Is this the only evidence that proves itA photograph of you and IYour reflection I've erasedLike a thousand burned out yesterdaysBelieve me when I say goodbye foreverIs for goodWas it a dream?Was it a dream?Is this the only evidence that proves itA photograph of you and IWas it a dream?Was it a dream?Is this the only evidence that proves itA photograph of you and I(A photograph of you and I)Was it a dream?Was it a dream?Is this the only evidence that proves itA photograph of you and IA photograph of you and IA photograph of you and I... in love...

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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Well everyone...looks like the year 2007 is going to end and it has been a really fruitful year...haha...next year 2008....its gonna be preparations for O'lvls....and everyone is going to be really busy...so i really wish to take this opportunity to thank some people who have always been there for me....be it good or bad times....i sincerely wish to send my gratitude out to you guys...without wonderful friends like you....my life is probably incomplete....without further ado...please read the following messages below.

To Darren:

Well...i have known you for about 3 years already....you have really been a great friend to me....haha....always cracking jokes and stuff.....when i first got to know you....i already knew you were someone whom i could trust and depend on....we started getting to know each other better....and then we were band mates in the band "Sleeping Awake" which you and ryan formed....thank you for inviting me to play in the band.....erm....next year is really gonna be a short year for us....i do hope that we can continue our friendship even after we complete our O levels and maybe go our seperate ways....thanks for being there for me....sharing ur ipod and music taste with me.....and also being late for jamming sessions as usual >.<....haha...you really put a smile into my life....thanks so much!

To Ryan:
Haha!....FEI JIANG!!!....haha...well i know you for about close to a year i guess....since we only started to know each other in sec 3.....you are someone who is really hyper....and you are a joker as well haha.....its been great having you as a friend.....and former twin guitarist.....but sadly you are now the drummer haha....well...i hope we can do some acoustic sessions together in the future....as well as continue to make the band sleeping awake a progressive band....thanks so much for your company....and introducing me to so many boys like girls songs....which i have grown to like....haha....

To Dom A.K.A Boss:

BOSS!!....your kah kia going to take this chance to write you a message! haha.....sorry for slacking during my working time....but if i dont write now....den i dont know when i will get another chance to write this liao....hmm....i know you for 3 years.....you are probably one of the closest friends i have in secondary school....seeing that i known you since the early days of sec 1....i know you have always been a fanatic of cars haha....i hope that your dream to become a professional racer will come true....cause i beleive that if you have dreams....works towards them and achieve it :D....you are a great friend to have...and i think i would have regretted not knowing you ^_^....thank you for chatting with me on msn about personal life and stuff....and for cheering me on when im down....haha....oh and i do hope you improve on your spagetthi cooking skills ^_^....must remember to cook one portion for me also hor!....haha!

E.C:

Aiya...i think i just use E.C you also know who i talking about liao hor?...no need to do introduction liao ok?....haha....dont come pretend you dont know that im writing this to you hor...haha....eh sorry i cannot find gold colour font....so just have to make do with yellow....but thats your other name right?....yellowish_devil....the one who beat me 4 times in yahoo pool >.<....haha....haiyo....i got alot of things to write and say to you....but some things....now is not the right time to say haha....but anyways....dont be surprised if this gets a little long hor....you also write quite long for me....so i will also write long if not longer....for you...haha....hmm....i know you since when ar?....ok la say is sec 1.....but we didnt really know each other well that time.....i also never really payed close attention to you....cause during that time all the attention was on people like shu fang....madeline....kaiting...hannah....this kind of people haha....so i guess you were like more of the quiet types one.....than in sec 2 leh......got to know you better through "II"....and i really want to thank god for giving me the stupid idea of creating "II"....if not i wouldnt get to know you well le....haha....than....we became CKH and E.C through the literature performance....which i until today...will not forget.....haha....and from there our friendship slowly prosper to where we are now....and not one day have i regretted knowing a friend like you....in fact if i wished i had known you earlier....but you cant go back into time can you?.....haha....i want to take this opportunity to thank you for being probably my best friend....you really helped me alot....and i guess i started to look at life from a different angle after knowing you....scary huh?...i bet you never thought that you were capable of doing such a thing haha.....but anyways....i wanna thank you for lending me a listening ear to me when im feeling abit down/emo....and also allowing me to share my stories with you haha...knowing you has definitely brightened up my life....and also change my views on certain things....i know that sometimes life can be very unreasonable and unfair...but....lets learn to live with it?....we only have this one life to live fruitfully....we may never know if we will be reincarnated back into human form....or as other living creatures....so since we were given this opportunity to be humans....lets live our life to the best that we can....i also want to let you know that...if you ever need any help...i will always be glad to help you out to the best of my abilities....you will always be a friend that i will never forget in this lifetime....thank you....

To Her:

There are just so many things i wish you say to you...even though you might not know who i am refering to...i just want to write out my feelings and stuff here....so i hope that you dont mind ^_^....well i have already dedicated myself to you for 17 months....and its going to be 18 months soon on christmas :D.....i dont know why i feel this way towards you....the moment i knew you...you were different from all the other girls....i do not know how to explain these in words....so sometimes i express my feelings through writing songs and playing the guitar....your smile and laughter seems to brighten up my day....you are like the wind that blows away the dark clouds which surrounds me....i just feel really happy when im with you.....even if you do not notice me or pay little attention to me...i am satisfied to have you as my friend.....well....i wanted to tell you my feelings for you....but when i found out that you were already in a relationship....i really became very emo for 2 days....i almost started doing stupid things....that i dont wish to mention here....and yeah....it felt like it was the end of world.....that is probably a feeling that i wont forget this lifetime....its like having a knife being driven into my heart that i needed to live....i really felt like giving up and stuff....but than i told myself....that my motto in life was to never give up....so i continued to keep this things to myself....and i guess it was a really stupid thing to do...cause overtime....it became too heavy for me to carry and i had to write it out somewhere....haiz....do you know my feelings for you?....does it even bother you?....does my presence irritate you?.....i always ask myself these questions......sometimes i think im foolish for doing this kind of things.....you might not even know that this person im writing to is you....and yet i pin high hopes that you realize that this person is you.....is love something that is already decided by your fate?.....or is love something that you strive for and decide for yourself?......my life is so complicated now....i dont know if liking you was a mistake....cause if it was....it was probably a good mistake that i would have not regretted making.....i would do anything for you....even if you want me to bring the stars from the skies for you.....i would still find a way to do it....even if it takes me more than one lifetime to do it....perhaps its just wishful thinking on my part....you already have someone to care for you....but i dont mind being a little flame amongst the big flames....even if you do not recognize my prescence or acknowledge me....all i wish for is that i can be a little angel to protect you wherever you are....and i swear to not let any harm come to you at all....even if i have to give up my life for you...it would be a good exchange....and i would die peacefully and leave this world knowing that i did something for you....i just hope that you will be happy....as long as you are happy...i will be happy....if you are sad...i am willing to share that sadness and sorrow with you....if you need any help....i will be there for you......i know that sometimes you feel sad and hurt because of relationship and family problems.....but do you know that everytime you tell me these things....i am actually more hurt than you?....just seeing you sad or depressed.....makes me feel like someone has thrust a blade through my chest....and the wound wont heal....only you being happy can erase the wound that has appeared.....if you ask me how important you are to me....i would tell you that you are not placed at the 1st position in my heart.....because you are not number one.....but you are the only one in my heart.....even if you were number 2....no one would be number 1.....i think getting to know you was probably the mission that i had to complete in this life time....and im glad that i got to complete it while im still in my teens :D.....i dont expect you to feel the same way for me....because i know that love cannot be forced....i ask myself occasionally whether being with you is just a dream....or could it be reality?....i guess thats how life is....certain things are really complicated....someone once told me that if you love a person deeply....you should dedicate your heart and soul to that person....and i guess i have already done it....but...i done it without you knowing....so i guess in the end....i still accomplished nothing at all....im really worried about certain things....i mean life is so unpredictable....anything can happen....and sometimes i wonder to myself....if one day you aren't around anymore....what should i do?.....how will i react?.....this are some of the questions that even i myself do not have answers to....i guess i will let the future decide the answers.....

-JuN-

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Saturday, December 15, 2007

Ok...havent been blogging much...but here i am to enter a post for today....woke up at abt 8.30 cause eus smsed me to play dota with him...but i was kinda tired so i slept until 9...den woke up...went to bathe and ate breakfast....after that decided to play dota awhile...but eus was AFKed....so nvm....went youtube watch highstake poker.....was kinda cool and preassurizing at times....haha...especially when u see someone loose like 350k at one go?......it kinda hurts.....haha...so anyways....watched until abt 1.15...den went out lunch at turf city....after that....was caught in rain for like 1 hour....den returned home at abt 3.30pm.....went to watch more highstake poker until 6+....den dota with shi jie and wen kai against 4 insane AI's....at first we were winning....but thanks to wen kai's greed for kills....we got pushed into the base by the enemies....in the end the game ended with us loosing....i got a score of 14-5 which i tot was kinda ok....considering zeus and luna were in the game on my team....haha...and i was using POTM....but anyways....went dinner after that and here i am posting.....ok one more thing before i end this post....can those people who do not know me and pass by my blog....if you want to tag it....at least leave your name or something....please dont use anonymous or any other thing that makes me have to guess who you are....thanks!

-JuN-

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Well i havent been posting much....thats cause i was in malaysia for the past 3 days....well anyways i will do a quick review here....left for malaysia at around 7am in the morning on the 9th of december....reached KL at around 12?.....den decided to drive to my aunts house to visit first....after that we got involved in some kind of indian protest....and our car was damaged lol....not severely....but like 2 rocks hit our car....so yeah.....anyways....managed to escape alive haha.....when i reached my aunts house.....was kinda shocked to see my cousin there....than i asked him what he was doing there haha.....he said the day before he went up to genting....den today he come down to visit also.....*so coincidence*......yeah....so after that went out for lunch....den went to check in at the hotel.....after that went back to aunts house to watch some movies.....den went for dinner and back to hotel to sleep.....the next day....woke up....went to 1 Utama to eat lunch.....i gotta tell you....we went to this japanese buffet restaurant called "Shogun" and it was probably the best buffet i ever had....there was like over 100+ varities of food to choose from....so after we finish eating....went shopping and i spent like over 250 RM on clothes and stuff....wanted to buy a crystal sculpture as X'mas present for her...but than the storekeeper said that it is very fragile...so didnt buy in the end....after that went back to aunts house....ate dinner....den went back to hotel to sleep....next day....ate breakfast....and than drove back to singapore :D....den reach home le.....rest awhile....ate dinner....den chat and play yahoo pool with deb....haha....she act noob nia....actually quite pro one....got the killer aura....very scary :X....haha....anyways after that went to sleep le as i was really tired....so yeah....

-JuN-

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Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Ok im not gonna enter a blog entry today...but rather ill be doing a little quiz i found on darren/ade's blog. Enjoy!

~Quiz~

Q: Name a friend whose name starts with an "S"

A: Shun An, does that count? cause its his chinese name...but oh well >.>

Q: 4th person on your missed calls

A: My house number >.>

Q: What did the last text msg you receive say?

A: "I tuition till 6.30 luhx.i ard 7 plus shld be online.haha"

Q: Do you chew on your straws?

A: Hell yeah i do!

Q: Do you have curly hair?

A: As straight as a line :D

Q: What is the next concert you're going to?
A: Some concert next year :D

Q: Who's the coolest person in your life?

A: Guitarist Jun of phantasmagoria :D We share the same japanese name :X

Q: What words do you say alot?

A: LOL

Q: What is the last thing you ate?

A: Beef for dinner :D

Q: What was the last thing you said to someone? And who was it?
A: "Dont worry about it haha"...the person ar...someone on my msn >.<

Q: Do you watch tv?

A: Not alot >.<

Q: Have you seen the movie donniedarko?
A: I didnt even know that was a movie!

Q: Ever been hunting?
A: Alot of times in maplestory! I went hunting for rice cookie items just now :P

Q: Is marriage in your future?
A: Depends...this question kinda makes me emo...lets skip to the next one >.>

Q: Who was the last person you said "i love you" and meant it?

A: I cant remember...

Q: What should you be doing right now?

A: Chatting on msn?

Q: Do you have a nickname?
A: Narandel, Jun, Seany...etc

Q: Do you beleive in love at first sight?

A: Yep i do...

Q: Whos the youngest one in the family?

A: My brother..

Q: Is drug free the way to be?

A: Definitely

Q: Do you clean up nice?

A: What do you mean =.=

Q: Last time you used a skateboard?

A: When i was 10 years old >.<

Q: Where was the last place you slept besides your house?

A: 2d chalet :D

Q: Ever run out of gas on the road?

A: Im 15 this year...think i got a car?

Q: Best movie you've seen in the past 2 week?

A: Havent seen any movies yet :D

Q: Who do you trust the most?

A: My family...and...her

Q: Do you think people who come out with braindead quizzes are crying out for help in a twisted way?

A: I guess so.

Last...
Q: Person you saw?
A: Mom

Q: Talked to on the phone?
A: Mom

Q: Hugged?

A: None >.<

Q: Person you texted?

A: Debbie

Today...

Q: Date?

A: 4 Dec 2007

Q: plans?

A: Chat, Play, Sleep...

Q: Dislikes about tommorow?

A: None

Currently...
Q: Missing someone?

A: Yeah...her....

Q: Mood?
A: EMO...EMO...EMO...

True or False?

Im a morning person? A: I guess so lol.

I am a perfectionist? A: I dunno lol

I am an only child? A: No

I am currently in my pajamas? A: Nope

I am online 24/7 A: No...sometimes yeah...but nah....

I am very shy around the opposite gender A: To some yeah...

I can be paranoid A: I try not to...

I currently regret things that i have done A: Yeah...regret something i failed to do a long time ago...

I enjoy talking on the phone A: Not so much as i enjoy msn :D

I have alot to learn A: Yeah

I have a secret: Yeah i do...its a secret i been keeping for 17 months...

5 person to tag: Darren, Debbie, Dominic, Adeline, Shun an :D

-JuN-

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